more positive this week?

Well, we'll see.

Good masterton weekend with a strange but fun oktoberfest. It got us out of the house!

Straight back to 90kg this morning. I'm not going to be discouraged. My lifestyle has been driving that and it's been worth it. Upcoming overseas holiday will make it tricky to do anything about it this month. I need a good mindful couple of weeks to set myself up for success. 

Adhd assessment today. I'm not nervous, should I be? The fact I'm not nervous suggests what? An meh lets just see what happens. 

This is quite a flat journal post, isn't it. I'm a bit meh and flat today. Not unhappy; but it's just another day with nothing bad but nothing to look forward to. I miss the fun evenings when I did more with meetup. Do I need to find something both long term inspiring and short term dopamine hitting? Trouble is it now means hanging out with old people who are generally a bit boring. 

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